Not trying to jump right into it, BUT to sum up these past few long weeks...my grandfather is no longer suffering. As much as we wanted him to still be here with us and get better, he just couldn't fight anymore. And that's ok. And we made sure to let him know that, that it would be ok. And to let go whenever he was ready,that we would all be right there with him. I think deep down that's what he was waiting on. To just hear it from my grandmother and all of us. Unfortunetly when I found out he had maybe only a few hours left of holding on, I wasn't able to catch a flight in time. So I decided to FaceTime him and my grandmother that night instead, and just let him know how much I love him. As hard as it was to do that, I'm just thankful and have peace knowing he heard those three words. I thanked him for everything, for being such an amazing grandfather and great grandfather as well. It sucks letting go, especially when your so close with someone. It's especially difficult when you've never lost anyone so close. But being here in Texas around the fam, definitely has made it somewhat easier/comforting for all of us. I'll definitely have to post some pics of him and some of our memories on here soon.
Annnd I won't lie, yesss i'm starting to feel a bit homesick. Definitely missing my hubby and the warm weather of course. But I'm honestly happy my mom, Elijah and I are still out here and able to help my grandmother around the house and whatever else she may need. I know it's always the hardest once everyone is gone and back to their regular routine/lives. But definitely having company/family around is always a plus...
No matter what we'll carry him with us everywhere we go <3.
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